morning was being surprised by baby..
but the intention was obvious.

busy week la..
tue work then tuition
wed work, meetup aggie to take my diamond n white gold back, meetup lola at cck lot1 for pg mall bag, den back to cwp to watch ice age..
thur work, 2 tuition.
fri work, den see doctor.
sat meet some1 for my backpack imported from korea n bugis
seriously i think my mum goin to kill me if she know i bought 2 backpack..
sun tuition for awhile n rest at home?

received another tube of bb cream which i ordered n was mailed out on sat..
when my current one still got 1/3 left..

mr ong is so blacklisted by me.. wahaha..

if that was done to let my defense down..
u are so wrong..

妥协 - 蔡依林
你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太远

today took half day leave..
havin real bad cramp..
head spining. vomit twice.
yes, my pms is very serious.

nat called me last night..
he shared gospel.. well..
asked me to read proverbs 3..
i watched from tv, say king soloman had great wisdom..
if u read his scriptures, u will gain wisdom..

i having kinda good appetite on sun..
but i m not eating for 2 person portion ok.. haha..

you showed no sympathy at all.

jay contacted me once he back from oversea..
i knew he was expecting something..
but i could no longer give ...

having a big headache..
not sure is it due to lack of slp or the great deals of pressures..

it meant something.
when i had stopped coming ard..

曹格 - 寂寞先生
我假装无所谓
才看不到心被拧碎

my attitude had nt improve over the days..

the famous artiste just passed away..
my msn nick was, the pedophile died..
so andy ask, i dun like him ar..
i say, nv like or dun like.. doesnt really matter to me..
i refrain from saying the name..
juz in case some1 google n chance upon my blog n sue me for defaming.. well..

2nd, baby called when my boss was ard..
den evening after i knock off..i teased him..
haha.. really giving him a hard time.. oops..

3rdly, i was messing ard wid mr. x..
taking my lil revenge when he smsed me..

facing a great amt of stress at work..

blacklisted 3 person in my contact..
this time i become clever alr..
i put an x infront of the name.. instead of del off the contact..
if e person sms/call me.. i can dun bother..
instead of wonder who is tt..
the 3 person i ban.. is o.x.y..

i m curious how much the roaming charges will b imposed on mr. c during this period..

tt night, i stood there..
waiting for that something i yearn.
but u juz didnt come ard..

jolin - 妥协
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界

today wasnt in a good mood..
coz ytd nv slp much.
didnt managed to get the presale tic for gaga's concert..

today showed 3 ppl attitude..
1st victim..
9plus am mr. ong called if i want to go watch transformer..
i told him i watched it ytd alr..
i treated him real badly, it karma..
coz he ignored my msg on 2 different days..

2ndly.. aggie asked me abt booking transformer..
i dun understand y they couldnt get simple things done..

3rdly.. i gave baby attitude when he called me ard 4pm..
when i went out to buy lunch..
it was drizzling..
it was cold..

tt how i felt (inside)

it was some night for me..

ard 6plus baby called.
if he didnt called, he wouldnt know we'd be watching the same movie in the same theatre, in the same row, but different column.
ignorance is bliss..
3rd coincidence..

i gave him lots of attitude over the phone..
he told me he was feeling bad enf after his work..
n i still gave him a hard time..apologies..

met jordan at amk hub..
dinner at subway..
saw andy while i was queuing up for durian pancake..
watched transformers..


wat happen was i brought the drink into the cinema.. i realised it spill..
it juz happened i bought a new bag at tpy after i end work..
so i transfer everything to e new bag..
n i left a work-related usb there..
i needed it to run a program.

after the movie, i was alil dist away alr, den i duno y i suddenly thought of it..
i began to flipped through my bag.. n couldnt find..
so i cabbed back.. i requested to go in the theatre to find..
but to no avail.. so i thought they may hv swept alr..
it was small n black in colour..

it was my 1st time, seriously digging trash wid bare hand..
i hope my hand is not goin to rot or wat..
i felt nausea intitally when faced wid the rubbish..
there is like ard 8 trash bag, n they didnt know which 1 belong to e theatre i was in..
so i was looking for the trash bag wud subway cup inside the carrier de..
i came across one bag similar on the 3rd bag, but couldnt find anything..

the staff suggested y not later wait till the 11plus session movie end den they find again..
n i said i will wait till 2am for the next slot to finish..
i went out.. broke down. seriously cried..

thanks jordan for calling n comforting me n offerin to come down..
mr chua happen to sms to ask how was my movie..
i didnt know he oversea..
thanks for calling from taiwan..
n accompanying me on the phone till i reached home..
thanks baby for the sms..

after awhile, i decided to go back to flip the trash again..
this time e staff passed me plastic gloves, n there was an indian cleaner offered to help me..
he duno from where brought up a trash bag n started looking..
den out of a sudden, he picked up something n asked if it was wat i was looking for..

omg.. it was some experience..
if it was my stuff. i wld hv juz couldnt b bothered n buy a new one..
but there was responsibilty tt i held for..

but i was lucky..
that i bought a bag, n i manged to find the usb..

i m tired, exhausted when i reached home..
took a long clean nice bath..
i hope tonight there wont be nightmares that haunt me..

recently in very bad temper..
so dont agitate me too much..
if not i will flare up..

sun there is 2 ppl goin ard dr to dr sharing gospel..
haha, i rejected them.. if i wanna go church, i'll go..

mon night saw victor again.
i had 2 dreams.. 1st i dreamt of watching horror film..
2nd was i went for 2 tuition session consecutively..

dont take me for granted.

mr a.. u wont get wat u want unless u give 1st..

today went chinatown..
bought 2 shirt for daddy..
bought myself 2 pair of shoes..
tue i m goin to get a bag..

saw my neighbour..
delicious desserts n frog leg porridge..

jordan told me, it was a back up plan..
if one day, i stopped being the nice one..

dun push me too much.
if not i b difficult.
very difficult. i promised.
i not here to please everyone.
i m juz irritated..

jordan n wen xing say i having super bad attitude today..
not bad mood is guai lan..
but i dun hv a dick..

evening after work went to town wid aggie n jordan..
had beef noodles n lemonade for dinner..
catch a movie at grand cathay..
saw jes n jason..
after went balcony for long island tea..
saw desmond n his gf..

mr wang, if u can show some sincerity..
mr ong, u will have a taste of your own doing..
juz dun call n spam my phone, to no avail.. coz i was oversea, thinking tt i changed no.

cant be his paparazzi anymore..

this gonna reveal my shopaholic character..
n many ppl will shake their heads again.. =(

i promised not to buy any more clothes, accessories..
till dec 09.. cmon i can do it ok..
unless they are real good bargain..
mayb i need 1/2 more bags..
n i really need more shoes..
i need to start saving for something BIG..
which i will get in 2 yrs time..
endure, be patient n wait..

lady gaga coming to sg for concert..
aug 12 wed @ fort canning..
shld b open air.. without seat ba..
tic sale start on next wed....
i either going K or L..

apparently i did ask J too..
but he got something else better to do..
so.. i m in no position to request anything..


gaga in da house..
cherry cherry boom boom..

gaga: "SINGAPORE I FUCKING LOVE YOU!"
cant remember she say in which of the 5 vids alr though..

morning started badly..
i was on the train to work..
wanted to use lappy..
den my batt was low..
after awhile i realised i didnt bring my charger out..

so went back home to take n cabbed to work..
i reached office half n hr late..

he was sick..
n i got worried..
hope tt he will get well soon..

dont want to lose myself.
not now. not today

潘玮柏 - Don't wanna say goodbye

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna say goodbye
混乱的心该怎么才能平复 Be alright
但爱的距离太远 想弥补什么 都已经太晚
假装说一切没关系 It'll be alright
我想我已经明白 我失去了你 失去了你

wed

days pass fast when u are occupied and busy..
i screamed quite alot today..
was on phone wid jordan, so when bus arrive,
i butter finger n dropped my phone..

night met up wid baby n passed him his stuff..
there was a cat coming towards me n it meow at me..
i screamed again. alright..
i can go film the scary movie alr..

i m still deciding if i shld go for class gathering..
coz jes n mel are not turning up..
eil may hv to prepare for flea..
but i cfm wid shi en alr.. oops..

i hesitated in giving all out to you..
my heart was too tired for all the doubts..
u can keep all that for yourself..

很多的对质是让对方没有面子。

人的心理- 就是你伤到他的自尊心之后， 他不会变诚实。

他因为受伤，所以会有更多的防卫跑出来。

他就是连更低级的谎话都会跑出来，最后我们会更受伤。

在追求真爱 时，还是有逻辑可以遵守的

不要过度的扭曲自我，不要过度的扭曲人格。

因为你过度的付出，就是自己在践踏自己的自尊

did my intuition fails today..
he was right, i lost the telepathy.
the radar was cut off..

dun worry, i m in good control..
i'd stop letting my thoughts run wild.

tue

dun ask me y i get so excited when i hear from him.

he ask if i had a bored day..

saw victor tan today on my way home.
he is my pri sch mate..

really big thanks for isaac for uploading gaga live vids in sg!

mr. c made me cry..
yea, coz i went to slp..
i think he felt flustered..
n started spamming my phone..

lady gaga - love game
Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

if every week i gotta chiong like this week.
i sure super bad mood de..

last night i saw the guy..
whom my long hair was accounted for..
till now.. i still doesnt dare to cut short..
not because of him anymore though..

it was x years ago..
when i heard my frenz say he will like u if u had long hair..
looking back, the guy was really shallow..
n he could hv find a better excuse..

if this goes on, i may break my J curse..

i like him, coz he isnt selfish..

i m havin serious mon blues..oops..

ytd night dreamt of goin out wid mr. t..
follow by kenna disturbed by mosquito..
i think i get bitten thrice..
woke up at 4.30am..
pour medicated oil all over my body..
like applying lotion like tt..
to deter the mosquito n to stop the itchness..
use the blanket to cover all body part except for neck n above..
tt is required for breathing..

Lady Gaga - Just Dance
I've had a little bit too much.
All of the people start to rush, start to rush by

sat afternoon was pouring hard..
i started worry for him..
canceled my makeup tuition..
was havin headache..

alvin called ard 2am..
i was kinda in bed.. didnt pick up his phone..
sat night had a dream..
i dreamt abt goin field trip.. some sort of sch event..
after the thing ended.. we took a bus..
jes n mel took till buona vista there..
while i continued my journey to harbourfront to meet him..
i remembered the streets was old..
i went into a traditional dessert shop n ordered something..

when i wake up..
saw a msg sent by mr. chua..
he dreamt tt i beat him up..

sun tuition was canceled..
which means next week i gotta chiong tuition on mon, tue, wed n thur.. =(

jay called me..
chat on the phone wid him for awhile..
i think his life is dry..
n shall leave out the rest of the details..
thanks gary for dropping me msg during his dinner break..
evening was surprised to receive a call from baby..

peiling's baby n my baby share the same name..
den my baby ask who is more handsome..
zz.. i nv see jonathan b4 oso..
goodness he is J oso.. haha..

if there's anything i can help, you know i would.

passion, intimacy and security

it was a nightmare..
i dreamt of work related stuffs..
i almost made some huge mistakes..
mr.10 asked u checked alr..
something like tt..
luckily the proposal was rejected..

i went to slp wid a big headache..
woke up feeling nausea..

evening went it fair wid gary..
he bought a mouse, looking for tv n bluetooth..
saw evelyn working at level 6.. go find jordan n he gave me a super big candy floss! =)
suntec having watson, new urban male n fossil sale!

i stop receiving audio therapy..
had stop subscribing to aromatherapy..
n all these bad dreams continues to haunt

if it doesnt matter to you anymore..

i had a dream..
of escape n run.
i climb up the hill along the expressway..
saw a condo as i climb up the hill..
it was painted in white n maroon..
i was searching for the main road to seek help.. exhausted.

this is depressing.
i wanted to purchase something online.
oh shut up. dun say me for spending money. lol..
i juz needed to order bb cream n 1 pair of satin jeans..
but they only accept posb ibank..
i nv bring my device out.. >.<

lunched wid he shun ytd.. catch up alil..

watched ghost of girlfriends past..


evening tuition was cancelled becoz my kid went to play soccer..
so he was too tired..
went far east to meet peiling..
after tt we went to esplanade for choco.. =)

you were everything. everything i wanted.
i think peiling will know wat i meant.. haha..

last night, i dreamt of andy neo..
it was abt something bad..

afternoon andy lim called from us..
he having flashback of the deadly accident..

gary brought me to bugis to upgrade my plan..
my previous months sms burst more $20 plus..
so is ard 400-500 sms more..
got a 0 price phone..
goin to sell it off at 2nd hp shop ard $2xx..
thanks my cousin yi xing for helping me..

watch drag me to hell..

she kenna disturbed.
let me be the spoiler..
the female died in the end..

i needed luck for shyla, lydia n most imptly balaji..

if time allows, it may be different.

Pink - Dear Diary
Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep them

baby told me ytd late night tt he is sick..
aw.. my hrt went piang piang..
hope tt he b back healthy again..

i dreamt tt i went a sch carnival wid mr. t.
i saw melissa n jes..
den i saw the starhub logo..
they were having roadshow..

mr rayson is back from hong kong..
so he asked me out for dinner..
i was a bad girl.. giving all sorts of excuses to reject him.
money cannot buy me. a true heart can..

alright, mr. j can be mr.10, n i sometime use the sir name initials, sometimes use the name initial.
privacy for e person i m talking abt..

random.. who is this guy?
my dad was finding some photos..
n i came upon this..
same age as me as my mama told me..
i juz know tt he is in ns now..

didnt slp well at all on sat night..
woke up at 9am..

thanks mr. j for sending me to my tuition..
its was pouring hard..

watched monster vs alien..

quite cute la..

its scary.. though i shldnt hang dirty linen in the public..
my aunt made alil commotion ytd..
my uncle had a affair.. the slut went up to the house..
my aunt went mentally unstable..
started to shout n scream..
bite my uncle, den tear off his shirt..
2 police car came.. she was sent to mental hospital..
n my cousin cut herself..

Taylor Swift - Breathe
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out

thur night i dreamt of peiling. n a not so close frenz..
fri after work.. went for a 2hr treatment..
den went to amk hub for movie..
blood.. not nice..


sat didnt went to adidas warehse sale wid aggie n jordan..
evening went bugis for awhile wid gary..
supper was tim sum..

work was hectic.. n i m getting alil stressed..

男孩受不了，　说："为何死守着他＂
他真的值得吗？难道就要一直为了他，而放弃其他愿意为你付出的。男孩逼问着。
男孩提醒着： 这不都是场假象，　一切只不过是零。
女孩开始与男孩争执，全护着那个人，因此让男孩觉得厌烦。
最后，男孩反驳道：“那又是为了什么？他是你想要的吗？那个人会体恤吗？你又会幸福吗？　"

女孩顿时丧失了自信心。
她一点儿的把握也没有。
女孩犹豫着。女孩开始惊慌。
她怀疑这份坚定，不知是否会持久，便感到害怕。　

女生一直都知道 被爱还是幸福的。
但是她固执的在等。。。
不知道 为了什么 还在坚持着

女生经过多次的劝说，始终还是不肯放下。
她以为时间会地让那个人在自己的心中渐渐淡化，
日子一天天地过去，断了讯息。
那个人的地位在女生心中仍然没有动摇。

男生说她很傻。为何要让时光流逝，自己却无法接受别人的呵护与爱戴。
女生总是装着不在乎。其实，她也很担心。
要是有一天，那个人离开了她，她因该会感到不知所措吧。

女生还是选择了相信他

女生不想又再。。。
错的时间遇到对的人。

ytd night had 2 sweet dreams..
1st was i dreamt abt me n my bf n 2 other ppl goin to some themepark..
2nd was me, him n my parents eating some fine meal..
but i cant visualized his face.. haha..

morning was a cold one..
i slack on bed again..

lunched wid mr. 10..
after work cabbed to east coast..
gotta help frenz out..

adidas having clearance sale 2-7jun
refer to following web for more details. map attached..
http://www.greatdeals.com.sg/

it was another long day..
i woke up at 7.50am..
den i went back to slp till 8.30am..

evening wasnt really good..
coz i dropped my right contact lens..
somemore my right eye deg is higher..
n i got some stuffs to attend to at sengkang..
so i got blurred vision, couldnt really concentrate..

did a super malu thing..
i walked into the wrong lane in the interchange..
i walked alil dist den realised.. zzz..

my boss..also mr. j was a nice person..
he asked if i was ok working with them.
asked if i m stressed.. asked if i faced any prob..

rayson dropped me a msg..
he asked how was i doin..
he even asked if i was single..
told me he leaving hong kong for a biz trip..
ask me out for lunch/dinner when he is back..
he said he bought a car..
didnt asked wat car he bought, coz i dun1 2 make it sound that i m into him...

i told mr. y i would tattoo a letter j if my husband is mr. J
thanks mr. w for being there..

gary oso asked hw was my love life..
so i said like tt lo..
我爱的人不爱我，我不爱的人爱我。
so juz contine to let ppl love me ba.. hehe..

1. i need to visit the dentist..
2. visit the doc, coz my medicine finishing like in days time..
3. make up for my facial session as i had postpone today..

mr. 10 is my fav..

it was a long busy day for me..

woke up at 7.30am..
went back to slp till 9am.. OMG..
wait for cab from 9.4oam - 9.50am..
many cab change shift, or on call.. zz..
supposed to reach office at 10am..
i reached at 10.15am..

evening was tuition..
after tuition went amk hub to watch terminator salvation..


miss mr. 10..